Today it hit me. I’m telling the same same story. I’ve told the story over and over in my mind all the time. Breaking the story apart. Analyzing sections over and over again. Feeling sad about some parts and positive about other parts. Identifying the pros and cons only to end up in the same spot still not knowing what to do. I’m thinking I’m moving forward with all this heavy thinking and for the most part I was moving but not in the way my heart wanted. My body mind and spirit truly seeks peace. I want more peace and more ease and I strongly believe I can have it, but how? I’m stuck! I’ve been working on myself by letting go of what I need to let go of. I’ve focused on going within and accepting and allowing. But yet I still searched. I remained frustrated, and frankly a little depressed and sad. I knew I had the tools to do better, but I didn’t know what other tools to use to truly reach what my heart intended. Some tools only worked temporarily. I’d even talk to various people but they were in search for their own tools. I’d end up teaching or coaching then I’d end up feeling the same and in the same spot. I’d read and read my favorite books. I’d write in my journal to later reread and find out I’m even writing the story over and over.
It never occurred to me that the answer is so simple. I need to change the story. Retell, rewrite, revise, or recreate the story as I want it to be….
I am ready and I understand.
I’m not saying lie. I’m saying create a new story and manifest it as you want it to be.
Again, I look back and laugh. I can laugh because I’m really ready now. It’s going to take some time to retrain my mind and sync it with what I really want in my heart and then continue to believe it’s already here. But I know with a little practice each day I’ll get there or am I already….
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