There are times, when I’ve been at a crossroads, standing in the center looking around in each direction and silently asking myself in which direction should I walk? I stand with fear and worry, because I can’t see opportunity and abundance waiting for me and I know I’m not going back to create and play with the past. Then imagination takes me on a trip to many great and horrible places in my mind. I can’t stand here forever. I take a deep breath although still unsure, unclear about the direction or path to take in the moment.
After moving my feet to walk in one direction I begin to see several doors. Doors that lead me to teaching, graduate school, going back to work, navigating this unfolding spiritual me, observing as my husband and I age, and finally watching our kids grow up. The decision I made at the crossroads wasn’t so bad. Opening the doors of change is hard. Insecurities still arise, but something deep within me speaks. “It was time to choose, it was time to walk through the doors to teach, walk through the door to gain wisdom, walk through the door to release the kids into their independence, walk through the door and just be!”
Change happens whether we like it or not. My mentor has said many times to step out on faith…! I took a couple of steps and opened the doors. What doors will you open and walk through? Tell me….alluraeshmun@yahoo.com.
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